I was rode the bus this morning, as I usually do, to get to work. This morning was no different. I caught the bus when it was still dark. The air was warm and there was no wind. I had to hurry down the hill because I knew I was cutting it close and I didn't want to miss the bus. Just as I crossed the street to the bus stop, the number 54 appeared at the intersection. I got on the bus expecting the cool air-conditioned air to greet me as I stepped up. Yuck. It was warm and muggy. The windows were fogged up. I guess the bus driver was cold (or had a cold). Even his windshield kept fogging up. He finally turned the a/c up and it started to get cool as we merged onto the freeway. What this also did was clear the windows just as the sun started to come up and brighten the morning sky. I looked out the windows as it cleared and thought, "What a beautiful time of day - dawn. It looks like it's going to be a beautiful day." Then I stopped myself. I thought, "What if it turns out to be a tragically awful day? Anything could happen. I better not jinx it. I better not notice the beauty of the morning. If it turns out to be a terrible, tragic day, the pendulum swing from beauty to tragedy may be to great. Too much of a risk." I noticed what had just happened in my mind and was very troubled that I would allow a beautiful thought and a beautiful moment get extinguished so quickly by negative and fearful thoughts. Auwe!
I took some pictures yesterday afternoon. Hopefully, I'll be able to post tonight.
Thanks for the perspective check Elaine! You're absolutely right.
Posted by: Stacey | April 13, 2008 at 10:31 PM
Eh, it's about time you did your blog. But wow what a bummer. Just take things for what you see and don't let your brain play tricks on you. DON'T LET ANYONE/THING take your JOY away! If shit happens it happens and we move on.
see you,
Elaine
Posted by: Elaine | April 09, 2008 at 06:28 AM